Sunday, December 26, 2010
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
The Broken Road To True Love
I've been asked a lot recently how I met Severus. So I guess it's time I actually sit down and explain just how I came to be in love with a demon.
It was a typical night for me. A night of partying and having a good time. I'd been hanging out with some friends in the pool and had grown quite bored when I caught the most delicious scent I'd ever smelled. Turning I spotted the sexiest man I'd laid eyes on and I swear to you my heart actually started to beat for a second.
When my eyes met his, I was instantly and happily lost. Every single fiber of my being screamed to go to him, to touch him, to belong to him. Then he spoke to me. That voice, well, that voice nearly drove me to madness right then. I've not been the same since. *laughs*
When he got close, and we were both standing in that pool, right before he kissed me for the first time, I almost felt human again. I was nervous and excited at the same time. I wanted to be in his arms so badly that I wasn't sure it was a wise thing to do. But do it I did.
When his lips met mine, and his arms wrapped around me, I felt like I'd finally found the place I was always meant to be. I'd never felt more at home or at peace. We ended up sleeping together that night which wasn't unusual for me or him for that matter.
But before either of us could think, we were inseparable. We spent almost every night together and I was having the time of my undead life. He made me laugh and I was happy for the first time in so many years.
We went to Rome, where he showed me the city he loved and allowed me to just be in his life. Everything was going along fine until fate stepped in and tore us apart. I made a choice that I've regretted all of this time. I thought I was doing the right thing and I walked away from the only being that ever made me happy.
Of course, me being me, and Sev being Sev, we didn't stay away from each other for long. One night I woke and just couldn't bear it anymore. So I looked him up under the pretense of just wanting to talk. But with us, nothing is ever that simple. I was in his arms and we were right back in the midst of the greatest romance I've ever known. I just couldn't not be with him.
My heart ached for him. My soul cried out to be with him. Neither of us were free and shouldn't have been where we were, but when it's right and you're meant to be, you find yourself doing things you'd not do normally.
We met secretly often and I could feel his pain mingled with mine each time we had to part. I blame myself for all of it. He was trying to move on with his life and I just couldn't move on with mine. I honestly felt as if I wasn't living without him. The only time I felt whole was when he was here.
After leaving my mate, more than once to be truthful, I went to Severus. But by then he was already heavily involved with another. We tried. We tried harder than we probably should've back then and even when he'd say he wished to back off or I went back to my mate, somehow we always found our way back to one another.
Finally we both walked away and I agreed to marry the other mate. This time I tried really hard to stay away from Sev and even managed to do so for a while. Then, one night, out of the blue he was gone. Just gone. No goodbye, nothing.
I literally collapsed. I mean seriously, I didn't want to exist in a world where he wasn't. For the first time in all my years, I knew what true heartbreak was. It took several days before I could stop crying. During this time friends and family stepped in and kept my despair from my soon to be husband. They did everything they could to convince me to marry him.
At that point I wanted nothing but true death. Somehow I made it through the next several months. During that time I'd run into him here and there. Those were the happiest times for me. Just being close to him again. I still believe that Draven always knew my heart never truly belonged to him. Anyone who'd known me and Severus knew that he was the one for me.
After things ended and I'd moved on to a life of being single, I made my way back to Rome. I just wanted to be there again. It was the last place I'd been really happy. I would search the city for him more than once, never finding him. Once night I went so far as to sneak onto the grounds of his home and sat on the bench where we'd been together the last time.
It was then that I realized how much he meant to me. I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that no matter what happened the rest of my existence, I'd never love another the way I love Sev. I found myself begging the Gods to return him to me.
Then a few weeks later, I was home and heard a rumor that he'd been seen around town. My heart leaped at the thought of seeing him again. I didn't know what he'd been doing during the time we were apart and I'd no idea if he'd found love in his life. All I knew was that I needed to see him. I needed to feel whole again.
So one night, while sitting in my cottage looking at a picture of him, I gave in and opened the bond to him. I called to him, never expecting him to show up but damn if there wasn't a demon at my door almost immediately.
We were right back where we'd started. My heart felt complete. It was as if we'd never parted. Then a few days later, he literally swept me off my feet when he said he loves me.
Now, we're spending as much time together as possible and are in an exclusive relationship. Recently, thanks to Lory and her potion, and me and my inability to follow directions, we found out that we're expecting a little monster. We're happy. We're together, which is exactly where we belong. As long as Severus is by my side and loving me, I can face anything.
I am, now and forever, his.
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Fuck You...YEAH YOU!
I've debated on posting this for sometime. Now, with the mood my human is in, I'm going to channel her a bit and tell you exactly what I think.
Hate me all you fucking want, I'm NOT changing and I'm NOT going any damn where. The more you bitch and moan, the more I am going to do the shit that pisses you off. Every time you speak my name or bitch about me, you make me more famous. I WIN!
Think about that when you have something to say about me. For each second you spend on me, I'm controlling you, dumbass. How does it feel to know that I can make your day so miserable that you feel the need to bitch all the time?
Feels pretty fucking good for me.
I don't give a flying fuck if I have 1 follower or 1 million. I'm still gonna do me the way I wanna do me. Take it, leave it, love it, hate it makes no fucking difference to me. Your pathetic little opinion is nothing in the grand scheme of my existence. I do this shit and I do it better than you ever could.
Now for those that are so damn worried about a demon, get over it. I came to this RP world alone and have absolutely no problem continuing in it alone. What goes on between me and anyone I RP with is between us. NOT YOU. Unless you're fucking me, what I do is not of your concern. My pussy is my pussy. And for your information, I never sold the shit, I give it away for free. And they are lined the fuck up to get a piece.
That said....I've got one last thing for you...
FUCK YOU!
Love and kisses,
Sunshine
For those that have something to say...GET IN THE RING MOTHER FUCKER AND I'LL KICK YOU'RE BITCHY LITTLE ASS PUNK!
